I feel like I’m having to constantly fight against my anxiety. It’s a never-ending battle in my head, and it leaves me exhausted. Do I keep fighting? Of course. Why? Because I have to.
If I stop fighting, then what is the other option? I don’t want to give up. That’s the last thing I want to do. I want to lead a normal, happy, successful life! Don’t we all?!
There’s something extremely frustrating about anxiety. Even though I feel like I’m on edge all the time, there’s a part of me that is really aggravated with the situation!
The best way I can describe it is that I have two sides of me. I have the real me, the proper me, the one that ends up buried. And then I have the other side of me, the anxious me. It’s these two people who are battling to win, they’re battling for control.
Sometimes, it does leave you feeling that there isn’t any point. I can’t win. I’ve tried to win so many times, but the ‘real’ me never stays on top for very long.
Things have helped. Medication, and a few counselling sessions have certainly been beneficial, but I still struggle massively.
You can’t let that thought of there being no point overwhelm your mind, no matter how hard it is. Keep fighting, keep pushing. There’s nothing you will regret more than giving up on life.
We are all struggling in our own ways. The more I talk to people about my mental health, and open up about how things are for me, the more I find out that I’m surrounded by so many other people with their own stuff going on.
Would you tell someone else there’s no point? Would you tell someone who was struggling to just give up? Think about what you would say to them, and try to channel that, and say it to yourself.
I would advise anyone feeling like this to get some help. Talk to your family, your friends, and most definitely your GP. Speak to people you can trust. Speak to people who will be kind and supportive. And if they aren’t? Then you don’t need to open up to them again. They’re the ones who will miss out!
One of the main things you can do, is try to stay positive. Keep motivating yourself. Keep cheering yourself on.
No-one else is inside your head. They don’t know what you’re going through, and that’s okay. You don’t know what they’re going through either. It’s a part of life. It’s how we treat each other, and how we treat ourselves that matters.
I know these things aren’t easy. Every day I have to push myself. Each day is a challenge, to get up, and go out into the real world. There’s so much to see, and so many things I want to do, and I use that as my reason for doing it.
There’s a fight in you. But you have got to keep fighting. Don’t let that anxiety gremlin win!
You are worth more than that. You are worth fighting for.
Life is so special, and having a mental health issue can mean that you don’t get to appreciate life in all it’s glory. The moods, the panic, the depression, and the fear, get in the way of enjoying the amazing things this life has to offer us. That’s the saddest part about it for me. Which is why I fight.
I hope that anyone reading this feels a little less crazy, and a little less alone! I know what it’s like to feel like you’re going mad because of your mental health, and I know how awful it can make you feel.
Don’t give up, keep fighting. I’m right beside you.
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